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Don’t be beaten.

When you live with a long term health condition or illness, to a certain extent you get used to it, plus all that comes with it.
You just kinda get on with it. You have to because what other alternative is there? Do you let it destroy you? Or adapt and make the best of what’s ultimately a shitty situation.

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Sometimes though, life just throws you the unexpected. The hard moments where you NEED to step back and stop tryna just push through it…Yeah these moment suck, they test you mentally, physically and emotionally. They can push you right to your limits, make you wanna throw in the towel and call it quits.

Guess what though? THAT’S OK..It’s ok to feel that way, it’s ok to struggle..Those tough times, they make you who you are, they make you stronger in ways you never thought you would be.

Those hard, unexpected moments, don’t need to beat you. Practice self care, look after you, rest when needed and remind yourself (and anyone reading this) it’s Okay not to be Okay.

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All my love xxx

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Blue Week

It’s officially blue week 2020 aka a week known as the most depressing of the year….

Just know that whatever you’re going through you aren’t alone. That just because someone may be going through worse doesn’t mean your struggles are any less valid. Know it’s ok not to be ok and although it may not seem like it right now, things DO get better.

Don’t make permanent decisions in order to solve temporary problems and if you need help don’t be afraid to reach out and ask for it….2020 is the year of self love, self care and mental health awareness. Look after one another. ❤️❤️

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Just another Onlyfans girl

3 weeks into January and so many people seem to have completely given up on New Years resolutions. It’s cool, no judgement here as I don’t believe in them. However if you made one I’m assuming it meant there was something you wanted to either change about your life or specifically achieve this year.

Don’t let the pressures of a new decade or the fact others may not agree & support you stop you from living the life you want.

Last year I moved to making more “adult content” and stuck some of it behind a paywall. To say people were pissed is an understatement. I went back and forth over wether it was the right thing to do. I didn’t wanna be referred to as just another “onlyfans girl”, yet despite all of that doubt and hate it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. (Also I’m not an Onlyfans girl but I can point you in the direction of my 18+ content if you wish)

So basically what I’m tryna say is, wether it’s three weeks into January 2020, June, November or 2035 if you wanna make a change in your life do it. Set backs are fine, breaks are needed, just don’t give up.

Fitness

Gym, Gains & Getting Going

It’s been almost a year and a half since I started my fitness journey. There’s been a whole load of ups as well as some downs that I genuinely thought I wouldn’t come back from. I’ve laughed, I’ve cried, I’ve put myself in hospital and I’ve found a bunch of supportive as fuck, kick ass people.

I talked about starting this journey a good six months before I found a personal trainer and stepped a foot in the gym. My mind was torn between thoughts of wether I could actually do this and wether it even mattered what I thought, I just needed to do it

Honestly that first step was the hardest but also one of the best I’ve ever taken in my life.

When I first started it was off the back of being bed bound and I didn’t really have a goal other than to just get my ass there and survive.

Starting an exercise routine is hard enough as your average sedentary person. When you add some chronic pain, seizures and all the other health problems that can come along with them, it’s even fucking harder.

I still don’t have a specific goal other than surviving the session, but the affect regular training has had on me over the last 18months has been incredible, There may not have been some drastic weight loss transformation, but the changes physically and mentally have made every tear or panic attack worth it.

  • I’ve gained a lot more muscle and strength than I thought I ever would.
  • I’ve gained confidence
  • A good 80% of the time I can get off the floor myself if I have a seizure.
  • I’ve learnt the difference between good and bad pain.
  • Physically I cope with high pain days better
  • I’ve gained a little control of my diet. It’s not perfect but it’s also not total chaos.
  • I’ve learnt that weight / the number on the scale is not the be all and end all.
  • I’ve made some really close friends and finally on this list…..
  • I’ve proved in more ways than one I’m stronger than I thought

The main point of this post wasn’t just to tell you what I’ve learnt so far on this never ending journey…. (It’s a lifestyle y’all).

I also wanted to encourage others who may be thinking of working out, getting a personal trainer and taking that first step. Plus those who may be early on in developing a regular exercise routine, yeah it’s gonna suck at times but keeping at it may just change your life.

I dunno if you’ve found my rambling helpful or not. I deffo want to do more fitness type posts including fitness fashion. Us big boobed, plus size girls like to look cute while melting in our own sweat. #Facts

If you’ve got an idea or suggestion for a post let me know and until next time…..

Love Always

Charlotte

xxx

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You aren’t a blogger!!

Get comfy as this is a bit of a read, a bit of a ramble and a whole lot of truth.

I’ve written blog posts and deleted them. Written them and had them removed. As soon as my passion for blogging returned it was almost like the world was against the idea.

I write this in July 2019. I haven’t written posted anything on here this year and to be honest I didn’t do much in blogging terms last year.

How long do you have to go with out posting before you just have to admit to yourself, “You aren’t a blogger” ?

I dunno, to be honest it doesn’t even really matter. I’ve spent years in some way, shape or form sharing my life online and I’ve always loved doing it.

Wether I’ve talked chronic illness, health, fitness, fashion or anything else. I’ve done it from a deep love of writing and sharing my thoughts on those things. However as much as I’ve loved sharing the inner workings of my mind. I love my Grandad more.

If you’ve followed me anywhere online over the years you’ll know my Grandad was ill a long time. My biggest fan, I lived and cared for him throughout his sickness. There’s been many videos & posts where I’ve cried my eyes out over my grandad and how hard I found the whole situation.

Eventually I hit a point where being so public became too painful. I knew he didn’t have long left to live. I struggled with my own health and being online was no longer fun. I just wanted to be private and make the most of the precious time we had left.

My Grandad finally passed away 2 months ago at the beginning of May. Most days are still a struggle as I grieve and come to terms with this new chapter of life. A new chapter that’s reignited my passion and love of sharing my life online.

I’m excited again!!

I don’t promise a schedule or a specific type of content but I promise everything I post will be written because I’ve truly wanted to write it and because I love and believe in what I’ve written.

Speak soon

Charlotte xxx

Personal

Reintroducing Myself

So because I haven’t been overly active on this blog for a while. I kind of want to re introduce myself and share some things that’ll allow anyone new here to get to know me.

I realise this isn’t the most, I guess, original post but I do think it’s kind of important. If you’ve been here a while, you may think,

“Oh I know all this”

“She’s done similar posts before”

That maybe so, but people grow, people change etc so give it a chance yeah.

Here’s some facts about me 🙂

  1. My real name is Charlotte Louise not Charlotte Debs
  2. I’m 27 years old
  3. My birthday is April 24th, so I’m a Taurus.
  4. I was born quite prematurely so spent some time in the Special Care Baby Unit.
  5. I was born and raised in Cornwall, Uk 🇬🇧 This touristy county is home sweet home and I couldn’t imagine being anywhere else.
  6. Despite living in a place world famous for surfing. I’ve literally been probably only a handful of times throughout my life.
  7. I don’t really drink alcohol anymore and haven’t done since 2014
  8. I love tattoos and would love to get more.
  9. Despite having piercings, I’ve always been a tattoo person.
  10. I’m the oldest and only have brothers.
  11. Despite being the oldest I’m the only one without kids.
  12. I’m an auntie to 5 wonderful boys and 2 pretty little girls.
  13. I can’t drive and it’s something I really wish I could do.
  14. I struggle daily with chronic pain and fatigue.
  15. Although I originally started blogging in 2014. I definitely at this current time see myself as more of a live streamer.
  16. I genuinely feel like social media has helped me through some of my hardest days.
  17. I really hope through sharing my life and story online, that I help or inspire at least one person.
  18. My Favourite film is Beauty & The Beast. The original. Although I guess the live action version is pretty cool too.
  19. I’ve been a vegetarian since I was 15.
  20. I’ve had the same 3 closest friends since I was 16.
  21. I could live in pyjamas
  22. Or leggings.
  23. For the last couple of years I’ve cared for my grandparents.
  24. I could live of cups of hot tea but the amount of sugar Id consume would be crazy sooooo.
  25. I’m a big lover of Monster Energy Drinks.
  26. I collect Trainers / Sneakers but I’m selling a lot of them on Depop soooo https://www.depop.com/c_debs/
  27. I’m 6 months into a fitness journey
  28. I’m a HELL NO CARDIO kinda girl 😂
  29. I don’t feel like myself if my nails aren’t painted.
  30. I’m a total girly girl despite growing up what I’d consider a tomboy.

I hope you enjoyed learning a little about me. Anything we have in common?

Love Charlotte

xxx

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My Favourite Smoothie

Christmas 2015 I received the wonderful gift of a NutriBullet. The juicing / smoothie hype / trend was real back then and after being ill, I thought it’d be a good way of managing to squeeze some more calories, fruit and veg etc.

In general I’ve heard lots of advice and info given from trainers about how bad it is to drink your calories. Over all though, the truth is, as long your consuming at a calorie deficit, no matter their form, you’re going to lose weight.

Recently as I’ve over hauled my diet, I’ve re discovered my love for smoothies and my faithful NutriBullet. So today I’m going to a favourite recipe combination that I’ve been loving lately.

250 – 300ml Almond Milk

1 Medium Banana

40g Peanut Butter

1 Tablespoon Cacao Powder

This came to 446 calories.

Admittedly that’s a high calorie smoothie. Realistically though I’d never drink a glass of milk or eat a banana so it helps to get init my diet some vital goodness it’d otherwise miss out on.

It’s also super filling. ( I don’t tend to drink mine all in one go)

Top tip: Be careful with nut butters. It’s super easy to under estimate exactly how much your really consuming. Lots of people think they’re being healthy adding a tablespoon of peanut butter, weigh it out to avoid your smoothie yumminess causing weight gain.

Follow me on Instagram to see more food and fitness content. www.instagram.com/charlottedebs

Love Charlotte

xxx