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Don’t be beaten.

When you live with a long term health condition or illness, to a certain extent you get used to it, plus all that comes with it.
You just kinda get on with it. You have to because what other alternative is there? Do you let it destroy you? Or adapt and make the best of what’s ultimately a shitty situation.

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Sometimes though, life just throws you the unexpected. The hard moments where you NEED to step back and stop tryna just push through it…Yeah these moment suck, they test you mentally, physically and emotionally. They can push you right to your limits, make you wanna throw in the towel and call it quits.

Guess what though? THAT’S OK..It’s ok to feel that way, it’s ok to struggle..Those tough times, they make you who you are, they make you stronger in ways you never thought you would be.

Those hard, unexpected moments, don’t need to beat you. Practice self care, look after you, rest when needed and remind yourself (and anyone reading this) it’s Okay not to be Okay.

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All my love xxx

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Blue Week

It’s officially blue week 2020 aka a week known as the most depressing of the year….

Just know that whatever you’re going through you aren’t alone. That just because someone may be going through worse doesn’t mean your struggles are any less valid. Know it’s ok not to be ok and although it may not seem like it right now, things DO get better.

Don’t make permanent decisions in order to solve temporary problems and if you need help don’t be afraid to reach out and ask for it….2020 is the year of self love, self care and mental health awareness. Look after one another. ❤️❤️

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Just another Onlyfans girl

3 weeks into January and so many people seem to have completely given up on New Years resolutions. It’s cool, no judgement here as I don’t believe in them. However if you made one I’m assuming it meant there was something you wanted to either change about your life or specifically achieve this year.

Don’t let the pressures of a new decade or the fact others may not agree & support you stop you from living the life you want.

Last year I moved to making more “adult content” and stuck some of it behind a paywall. To say people were pissed is an understatement. I went back and forth over wether it was the right thing to do. I didn’t wanna be referred to as just another “onlyfans girl”, yet despite all of that doubt and hate it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. (Also I’m not an Onlyfans girl but I can point you in the direction of my 18+ content if you wish)

So basically what I’m tryna say is, wether it’s three weeks into January 2020, June, November or 2035 if you wanna make a change in your life do it. Set backs are fine, breaks are needed, just don’t give up.

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You aren’t a blogger!!

Get comfy as this is a bit of a read, a bit of a ramble and a whole lot of truth.

I’ve written blog posts and deleted them. Written them and had them removed. As soon as my passion for blogging returned it was almost like the world was against the idea.

I write this in July 2019. I haven’t written posted anything on here this year and to be honest I didn’t do much in blogging terms last year.

How long do you have to go with out posting before you just have to admit to yourself, “You aren’t a blogger” ?

I dunno, to be honest it doesn’t even really matter. I’ve spent years in some way, shape or form sharing my life online and I’ve always loved doing it.

Wether I’ve talked chronic illness, health, fitness, fashion or anything else. I’ve done it from a deep love of writing and sharing my thoughts on those things. However as much as I’ve loved sharing the inner workings of my mind. I love my Grandad more.

If you’ve followed me anywhere online over the years you’ll know my Grandad was ill a long time. My biggest fan, I lived and cared for him throughout his sickness. There’s been many videos & posts where I’ve cried my eyes out over my grandad and how hard I found the whole situation.

Eventually I hit a point where being so public became too painful. I knew he didn’t have long left to live. I struggled with my own health and being online was no longer fun. I just wanted to be private and make the most of the precious time we had left.

My Grandad finally passed away 2 months ago at the beginning of May. Most days are still a struggle as I grieve and come to terms with this new chapter of life. A new chapter that’s reignited my passion and love of sharing my life online.

I’m excited again!!

I don’t promise a schedule or a specific type of content but I promise everything I post will be written because I’ve truly wanted to write it and because I love and believe in what I’ve written.

Speak soon

Charlotte xxx

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Going To The Gym With Chronic Pain.

At the end of March I started getting serious about my fitness journey. It was something I’d talked about probably for the last 6 months. I just hadn’t got round to doing it. Honestly I think it was fear that put me off. The fear of hurting myself and ending up adding to my existing pain.

That hasn’t been the case though and I’ve enjoyed every gym session. Even the ones where I’ve felt like shite and dragging myself to a workout has been the last thing I wanna do. Don’t get me wrong it’s not been easy, but investing in a personal trainer and a gym membership has definitely been a worthwhile investment.

I’m still very early into my training programme and have been sharing my journey so far across social media, mainly for myself, as a way of holding myself accountable and keeping a visual diary of any progress.

Mentioning the decision to get fit online was really fucking scary. I’d be a liar if I said all the feedback has been positive but judging by my inbox several people have been ‘inspired’. (I’m no inspiration believe me) I hope this post helps in some way based on my experience so far.

Getting started on your fitness journey first of all requires some brutal honesty with yourself, mainly are you really ready? Whilst there’s no doubt that exercise can be helpful at any point in your chronic pain journey, jumping in full force only a few weeks after diagnosis sounds like it could only end badly. My personal belief is that you need to have already grieved for your past life and accepted your condition and limitations BEFORE making the decision to ‘get fit’.

This leads to my next point about being somewhat stable. Working out requires being able to tell the difference between what is your ‘normal’ pain that you can push past, (I hate the term normal but can’t think of another way to word this) acute pain that means something’s wrong / you need to stop and finally the good pain associated with a good training session. Yeah I know, believe it or not there is a ‘good’ type of pain, who’d of thought?

You need to be able to commit. Ready to commit. This whole journey has been outrageously frustrating at times. There’s been tears more times than I’d like to admit. There’s been a lot of laughs too though. You can’t just give up at the first hurdle. Unfortunately you’ve just gotta accept it’s gonna be hard at times.

Be open minded and flexible. Originally my goal was to just be able to get out of bed, show up and survive a training session. Now we’re coming into October and my goal has changed. Not every day or session is gonna be easy. Life gets in the way, health gets in the way. Accept that this is a journey and sometimes there’s going to be bumps in the road.

Take things one day at a time and try not to get discouraged. That’s my plan anyway.

You can follow and keep up with my journey on Instagram.

Charlotte

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Primark, Palettes & Apps – April Favourites

I missed doing a March favourites due to technology fails. April is one of my favourite months of the year though, and I couldn’t wait to share some of the things I’ve been loving.

Primark

Primark has been killing it lately and I’m sure every Disney fan has been loving it. The Disney collaboration has no doubt been something I’ve been fan girling over. I’m a massive fan of Beauty and the Beast after all. The Rose makeup brush I’ve included a pic of is just beautiful. The slip on sneakers are of course right up my streetIt’s the children’s clothing though that I’ve been really impressed with. I don’t have my own kids but I’m an auntie who absolutely loves to spoil my nieces and nephews. They just have the cutest collection to choose from. All great quality and for the price you can really go on a bit of a spree. Also great when you consider how fast kids grow.

Palettes

The Sweet Peach palette by too faced has become a staple in my collection, which honestly I’m surprised by, considering I wasn’t totally sold on buying it in the first place.

In general I prefer fairly natural looks but I’ve been trying to be more adventurous with my makeup lately. The colours in this palette have allowed me to, I guess take baby steps towards more out there and creative looks. The pigmentation is great and the smell, just like most too faced palettes is amazing.

I’m no beauty guru so I find makeup is hard for me to review. Sorry.

Epsom Salts

Epsom salts are something I’ve read about many times in the chronic pain community. Hailed as an all natural, all rounder product with more benefits than I can name. It’s been something I’ve been meaning to try for a while but never got round to.

Well over the last month I finally gave them a go. Admittedly I only tried possibly the cheapest, most generic tub I could get, (£1.50 from Tesco if you’re interested) but It’s turned out to be love at first sight. Relaxing in a nice hot bath of them, has really made a difference to some of the muscular tightness and pain I struggle with. Especially after gym workouts.

Even when my facial pain has flared, a pain I can’t soak in the bath. I found them to help me relax more than other bath soaks, it seemed to also help reduce some of the general puffiness I’ve been experiencing. Plus my skin felt stupidly soft afterwards.

I’d be interested in testing out some more expensive brands.

Sweatcoin

So in some sort of attempt to encourage myself to walk outside more, I downloaded the sweatcoin app upon recommendation of a relative.

In absolute basic terms it pays you for walking outside. You can then get free products, use what you earn towards gift vouchers and even save up for larger things like phones, TVs etc.

Here’s a snapshot of my earnings over the last 2 weeks. Believe me I hardly walk anywhere.

Click here to download.

I hope you’ve enjoyed learning about a few of my favourites. I’d be interested to know your thoughts. Let me know if you’ve tried Epsom salts and be sure to tweet me and let me know how you get on if you choose to download sweatcoin.

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Love Charlotte

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27 Things

In case you didn’t know (I mean why would you?) I celebrated my 27th birthday this week. Yay!!

In honour of reaching this glorious milestone, because honestly there’s been plenty of times I thought I wouldn’t.

Let me jump straight into this totally unoriginal idea of a blog post.

27 Things I’ve Learnt in 27 Years

  • You can’t rely on other people to determine your happiness, that’s up to you and you only.
  • Nothing is more important than your health.
  • Not just your physical health, your mental health is pretty damn important too.
  • Life is about balance, you can’t work yourself into the ground, you probably shouldn’t party yourself into the ground either.
  • You can’t do everything at once.
  • It’s ok to make mistakes, everyone does.
  • It’s important to learn from your mistakes. Was it really even a mistake if you learnt from it and did it better next time?
  • Life gets tough at times and unfortunately there’s not a lot you can do about it. Everyone goes through tough times. Hang in there.
  • Sometimes you need to hit rock bottom in order to work yourself up.
  • You need to stop comparing yourself to others.
  • Life’s not a competition, we’re all in a different race.
  • Buy the right size clothing. No matter what size you are, you’ll look a hell of a lot better when your clothing fits.
  • Accept you can’t make everyone like you.
  • Save money, when you can.
  • Remember to treat yourself. You only live once after all.
  • Challenge yourself in life. Whether it’s doing something that scares you. Something that you won’t find easy. It could be anything. Imagine how accomplished you’ll feel afterwards.
  • It’s never too late for education and you’re never too old to learn.
  • Exercise!!
  • Know your self worth.
  • You need to love and respect yourself before you can expect others too.
  • Be kind to others.
  • Be kind to yourself.
  • Don’t be afraid to think for yourself. At the end of the day you’re the one who has to live with your decision.
  • Accept help and advice. Especially from professionals and loved ones.
  • Don’t have regrets.
  • Accept you can’t change the past.
  • Be present. There are times it’s great to just be there. Living in the moment, The there and now, not focusing on a phone / screen of some sort.
  • I’m absolutely positive a lot of these points won’t be new to a lot of you. To me though, they’re truly some of the most important lessons I’ve learnt over the last 27 years.

Hope you enjoyed this post and feel free to hit me up and let me know something important you’ve learnt in life.Love Charlotte xxxIncluded a few pics from Birthday celebrations. Follow me on Instagram for more 🙂