Fitness

Gym, Gains & Getting Going

It’s been almost a year and a half since I started my fitness journey. There’s been a whole load of ups as well as some downs that I genuinely thought I wouldn’t come back from. I’ve laughed, I’ve cried, I’ve put myself in hospital and I’ve found a bunch of supportive as fuck, kick ass people.

I talked about starting this journey a good six months before I found a personal trainer and stepped a foot in the gym. My mind was torn between thoughts of wether I could actually do this and wether it even mattered what I thought, I just needed to do it

Honestly that first step was the hardest but also one of the best I’ve ever taken in my life.

When I first started it was off the back of being bed bound and I didn’t really have a goal other than to just get my ass there and survive.

Starting an exercise routine is hard enough as your average sedentary person. When you add some chronic pain, seizures and all the other health problems that can come along with them, it’s even fucking harder.

I still don’t have a specific goal other than surviving the session, but the affect regular training has had on me over the last 18months has been incredible, There may not have been some drastic weight loss transformation, but the changes physically and mentally have made every tear or panic attack worth it.

  • I’ve gained a lot more muscle and strength than I thought I ever would.
  • I’ve gained confidence
  • A good 80% of the time I can get off the floor myself if I have a seizure.
  • I’ve learnt the difference between good and bad pain.
  • Physically I cope with high pain days better
  • I’ve gained a little control of my diet. It’s not perfect but it’s also not total chaos.
  • I’ve learnt that weight / the number on the scale is not the be all and end all.
  • I’ve made some really close friends and finally on this list…..
  • I’ve proved in more ways than one I’m stronger than I thought

The main point of this post wasn’t just to tell you what I’ve learnt so far on this never ending journey…. (It’s a lifestyle y’all).

I also wanted to encourage others who may be thinking of working out, getting a personal trainer and taking that first step. Plus those who may be early on in developing a regular exercise routine, yeah it’s gonna suck at times but keeping at it may just change your life.

I dunno if you’ve found my rambling helpful or not. I deffo want to do more fitness type posts including fitness fashion. Us big boobed, plus size girls like to look cute while melting in our own sweat. #Facts

If you’ve got an idea or suggestion for a post let me know and until next time…..

Love Always

Charlotte

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Illness shouldn’t be competition

Originally, back in 2014, I got into blogging and social media as a way to share my experiences around living with chronic pain and fatigue. To, I guess relieve some of the loneliness and isolation I felt because of these things. Did it work? Did it help? Yeah of course. I suspect there are thousands who use the internet every day for those very same reasons.

The world of social media can be very simply put, split into different groups of categories/ communities. The fitness community, chronic illness community, beauty community etc

Today I want to focus on the chronic illness world.

Compared to other internet sub groups. There are some real problems within our community that you don’t really see anywhere else. For example I’ve never seen those in the beauty world exclude others for doing well in life. Yet that’s exactly what happens in the chronic illness world.

Hey you managed to go to the gym, to school, work etc. You didn’t have surgery or take a certain medication. Well, you’re not really sick then. Bye.

It’s absolute madness.

Everyone seems to forget that we’re all on different paths in life. We all have different definitions of normal, different goals etc. My normal could be another persons worst day. Similarly my worst day could be someone else’s normal.

Instead of excluding others and constantly judging. I think we really need to be more encouraging. Congratulate the person who managed to get out of bed and meet their friends today. If anything surely others struggling with illness, know how difficult something so seemingly simple can be.

Be kind. We’ve all fighting our own battles.

Charlotte

xxx

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Things Change…

I can’t explain how much has changed since the last time I wrote a blog post. I almost don’t really know where to start.

I kind of lost my passion for writing and have been focused on caring for my grandparents. It’s been hard and over the last few years and more intensely in the last few months, I’ve felt like I’ve not really done a lot for myself. I feel a little lost in life and unsure of who I am and what I want.

As my living / family/ personal situation has changed. I’m slowly starting to focus on me again, what I enjoy and what I want to do. Just typing this feels amazing. Blogging has always been such a love of mine.

I’ve thrown myself into a fitness journey over the last couple of months. (You’ll already know this if you follow me on Instagram). Originally, just getting there for an hour a week and surviving was an achievement. Now I’ve more time, I’m really upping my game and hoping to share the results. Getting into an exercise regime with chronic pain and fatigue is certainly difficult but it’s not impossible. I really want to inspire at least one person through sharing my story. If I can do it I honestly believe anyone can.

I’m still live-streaming most days and hoping to grow my audience even more. I love sitting and chatting to everyone raw and unedited. I like to think people appreciate how open I am about my life and struggles. Occasionally I’m funny too, so I’ve been told.

Health wise I very much, like I always have, take things day by day and one step at a time. My health is a blog post in itself mind so I don’t really want to say too much on the subject here. Maybe I could talk about at some point in…….. BLOGTOBER

Yep you read that right. I’m doing BLOGTOBER again this year. I gave it a go in 2017 and really enjoyed it. I’ve been thinking about it over the last week or so and think it would be a great way of kick starting this site again 🙂

Maybe a post every day for a month will make up for what an appalling blogger I’ve been the rest of 2018 lol

So if you’re new here, hit the follow button so you don’t miss a thing.

I’ve missed you all. I’ve missed this site.

Charlotte xxx

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27 Things

In case you didn’t know (I mean why would you?) I celebrated my 27th birthday this week. Yay!!

In honour of reaching this glorious milestone, because honestly there’s been plenty of times I thought I wouldn’t.

Let me jump straight into this totally unoriginal idea of a blog post.

27 Things I’ve Learnt in 27 Years

  • You can’t rely on other people to determine your happiness, that’s up to you and you only.
  • Nothing is more important than your health.
  • Not just your physical health, your mental health is pretty damn important too.
  • Life is about balance, you can’t work yourself into the ground, you probably shouldn’t party yourself into the ground either.
  • You can’t do everything at once.
  • It’s ok to make mistakes, everyone does.
  • It’s important to learn from your mistakes. Was it really even a mistake if you learnt from it and did it better next time?
  • Life gets tough at times and unfortunately there’s not a lot you can do about it. Everyone goes through tough times. Hang in there.
  • Sometimes you need to hit rock bottom in order to work yourself up.
  • You need to stop comparing yourself to others.
  • Life’s not a competition, we’re all in a different race.
  • Buy the right size clothing. No matter what size you are, you’ll look a hell of a lot better when your clothing fits.
  • Accept you can’t make everyone like you.
  • Save money, when you can.
  • Remember to treat yourself. You only live once after all.
  • Challenge yourself in life. Whether it’s doing something that scares you. Something that you won’t find easy. It could be anything. Imagine how accomplished you’ll feel afterwards.
  • It’s never too late for education and you’re never too old to learn.
  • Exercise!!
  • Know your self worth.
  • You need to love and respect yourself before you can expect others too.
  • Be kind to others.
  • Be kind to yourself.
  • Don’t be afraid to think for yourself. At the end of the day you’re the one who has to live with your decision.
  • Accept help and advice. Especially from professionals and loved ones.
  • Don’t have regrets.
  • Accept you can’t change the past.
  • Be present. There are times it’s great to just be there. Living in the moment, The there and now, not focusing on a phone / screen of some sort.
  • I’m absolutely positive a lot of these points won’t be new to a lot of you. To me though, they’re truly some of the most important lessons I’ve learnt over the last 27 years.

Hope you enjoyed this post and feel free to hit me up and let me know something important you’ve learnt in life.Love Charlotte xxxIncluded a few pics from Birthday celebrations. Follow me on Instagram for more 🙂

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How Tattoos Increased My Confidence

Grab a cuppa, get comfy, because this is something I’ve wanted to share for a little while. Whilst the topic is primarily about tattoos, it’s not aimed at just those with tattoos.

Getting asked about my tattoos is a regular occurrence, both when live streaming and in real life. They’ve always been a great ice breaker when meeting and talking to new people, plus on the whole, generally people are very complimentary.

Of course, on the flip side there’s always a few negative comments / judgemental toned questions too.

“Why did you ruin your skin like that?”

“What do your parents think?”

“Tattoos aren’t very feminine, they definitely look better on males”

“Do they actually mean anything?”

“I’m sure you were so pretty before you did that”

Don’t even get me started on those people who think they’re entitled to just grab or touch your arm / leg (insert body part here) etc, in order to admire / judge your artwork. *Serious eye roll / face palm.*

The reasons people get tattoos are as varied as tattoos themselves. Some have a deep meaning or sentimental reasons for getting some ink done, others simply think a certain design is aesthetically pleasing. In this post I thought I’d share a long story short version of the meaning behind my own artwork.

I don’t really remember developing a love for ink. It just kinda happened. Whilst I’d had the odd piercing growing up, the moment I got my first tattoo I knew it wouldn’t be my last.

Growing up I struggled majorly with my mental health. I spent the majority of my teen years in and out of hospital desperately trying to gain some control over my eating disorder and self harming behaviour. Eventually at the age of 17 I was detained under the mental health act and forced to undertake intense treatment. It was only as I was deep in to recovery that I truly began to comprehend the damage I was doing / had done to myself. I’d essentially cut myself to shreds. The scars a constant reminder of the past.

I think I got the idea watching an episode of Miami Ink, or something similar. A young woman who’d also struggled with self harm was having a sleeve tattooed in order to cover up the scars. Through getting inked she was turning a really painful part of her life into something beautiful… I knew that was what I wanted too.

So at 18 I got my first tattoo and the rest as they say is history. Whilst I don’t have a sleeve, I’ve got a fair few individual pieces that take up some space. If you’re up close you can still see the scars underneath but very few people get that up close and personal.

Each individual piece has some sort of meaning. Whether it’s in memory of a friend or family member, a favourite quote or just something that means something to me.

I personally feel like my ink has increased my confidence. They’re a part of me and at this point I couldn’t imagine not having them.

So when people say I’ve ruined my skin or how I must have been so pretty before I got them done. The temptation to slap them is real because I know damn well my skin was ruined beforehand.

I don’t feel the need to explain my tattoo story to everyone who grabs my arm and starts to ask questions or make comments. It’s totally ok to not even have a story and just have ink because you think it looks nice. No judgement here.

Oh and how about we all just stop randomly grabbing each other’s arms / legs. It’s not ok. You wouldn’t do it to someone without tattoos, so don’t do it to those of us inked up awesome people. Just ask nicely if you’d like to have a closer look at their artwork. Generally being polite / basic manners go a long way. Please. Thankyou.

Whether you have tattoos or not I hope you’ve enjoyed this post.

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Love Charlotte

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”Tis the season to be lonely – Blogmas #6

Yesterday I mentioned, right at the end of my tag post, a little about how hard this time of year could be for some people.

While the majority of us are in shop till we drop mode, preparing to stuff our faces and gearing ourselves up for the endless stream of visiting family / friends. It’s important to remember that not everyone is fortunate enough to have a happy holiday.

Wether due to losing a partner, not having family, illness or homelessness, so many will wake up Christmas morning alone. So many will go without the hot meal that so many of us look forward to.

Please look out for elderly family members, neighbours that may be on their own. Take a few hours out of your own festive fun to make sure others are having a good day too. I honestly can’t think of anything worse than being on my own at this time of year. Luckily I’ve such a big close family that sometimes the chance to be alone would be a fine thing.

If you’re on your own this Christmas, maybe check what’s on in your local area. You could arrange to meet up with someone else who’s alone. Check out local church or community groups for a hot lunch or consider volunteering.

If you’re really struggling and need someone to talk to. The Samaritans are available 24 hours a day 365 days a year.

www.samaritans.org

Or call 116 123 (UK and ROI)

I hope everyone has a happy holiday, whatever your situation.

Charlotte

xxx